get up and go!

3 miles
32 minutes
6:30-7 a.m.
Treadmill

Caleb stayed at our house for two nights while he was working on a job here in Vegas. I am beginning to wake up around 5:30 a.m. normally, but this morning Ian was up at 6 a.m. bugging Caleb, so I gave him some food and figured there was no reason I should try and lay back down, especially when there were two capable adults in the house to be with Ian, and Cooper was not awake yet! I took my phone and figured Chris could call me if he woke up. I didn't even tell Chris I was going. Which of course, when I got back, he wondered why I hadn't asked him to come (which I did do today and he went back to sleep...he he. At least I can say I asked him and he didn't want to come!). I had previously been worried that I wouldn't be able to run if I hadn't nursed Cooper yet, but it wasn't a problem at all. I had pumped later the night before, so that might have helped, but yay! I don't think that is an issue I need to worry about--another thing that had been holding back when I go. But now it shouldn't be a concern, unless of course he woke up and was starving while I was gone, but I could always come back fast if I needed to! I felt a little more freedom on that, it is a nice feeling. I love nursing Cooper, but sometimes it's hard when it doesn't make things as flexible for me and it really does determine a lot of the day--when, what, who, how long, etc.

I also had discovered a few weeks ago, how great my nursing sports bra really is. It was dirty so I threw on one of my very old sports bras, which I had used just fine when not nursing...lesson learned---there is a reason they recommend better supportive bras when nursing! :) Honestly, now that I'm a day away, I can't really remember what the run was like. There was another girl working out in the gym. I listened to my music and watch the news. There had been a shooting in Vegas after graduation and the teenager died that morning, so that was depressing to see and think about our boys going to school here...but otherwise the run was good. I really picked up the pace for a lot of it, especially toward the end and then cooled down the last little bit. It felt so good to be heading back to the house--in the morning--in the light--knowing I was just beginning my day and that I had already gotten my run in! I got to that night and was almost giddy knowing I didn't have to force myself to go over to the gym after the boys were asleep when I really am just ready to unwind and go to bed.

I was seriously really proud of myself for just getting up and going. When I got up Ian was still eating and playing around and Chris was in the shower. I showered before Cooper even woke up! I had almost not gone because I was worried that maybe he would wake up and Chris would hear him and Chris would feed him a bottle....excuses, excuses! But I just went and was so glad I did! Ian keeps asking and wondering where I am going and I hate having him think I'm abandoning him, but I really just need to get out and go!! :) Especially since I had not made it over Monday and Tuesday--because I was thinking I'd go at night, which of course doesn't happen, especially on Mondays after family night and then Caleb was here...I got to 10:00 that night and couldn't figure out why I hadn't just gone--I was worried about leaving Chris and not hanging out with him. If I give myself time I will come up with excuses and if I've just done it earlier that day, I still have the day ahead and I don't have to get to the end of the day and continue to make excuses and not go...I've already gone!! It is a very empowering and fulfilling feeling!