feels good!

3.25 miles (.25 warm-up, 2.75 miles, .25 cool-down)
9-9:45 a.m.
35 minutes
Treadmill

Cooper slept into until 6:30 a.m. which was great. I made breakfast, then when Chris woke up headed to the gym. Cooper had laid back down for a nap a little after 8, so I knew I had a little time before he needed to eat again. The back of left thigh has been pretty sore, but it honestly almost feels good to have it be sore and need to be stretched. I just listened to music today. I have some slower songs on my Shuffle that don't really work well for running. I decided that if I ever get a Nano or iPod that I'll have a list just for running of all upbeat songs. :) I only ran three times this week, which may have been good to let my body rest in between because my runs on the treadmill have been faster than I was running before. It really has felt good to push it harder and be tired and sweaty by the end of the run. But today I was especially slow. I just couldn't really get into a groove. I finally did after I'd run about 2 miles. So I'm wondering if it takes me that long to get warmed up and then I could run. I sped up for a bit in the middle of my run but then cooled down at the end. I don't want to push it so hard that I hurt myself or am dying.

Tim McGraw's song "Not A Moment Too Soon" came on while I was running (see what I mean about lots of slow stuff!) and it got me thinking about when Chris and I were dating, engaged and first married. I was really hard on him. I was really immature. I said and did a lot of mean things that were really immature. I was naive in a lot of ways and very self-centered. I focused almost entirely on what I was thinking and wanting. I don't regret that we got married, but in a lot of ways I think we had some pretty hard uphill battles because I was young when we got married. But then again, so was Chris, since he hadn't even been home from his mission a year yet! So I'm not taking all of the credit for our first few years of learning to make our marriage work (heck, we still are learning to do that six years later! but we are more grown up now at least, so we're not dealing with that factor as well as trying to make a marriage work!!). But it really did get me to thinking about how my own personal struggles and things I was working through really affected our relationship and the way I treated Chris. It makes me feel sad and I feel like I owe him an apology because we did have some rough time, I think mostly because I was so young and still trying to figure out myself and life, and now a marriage and another person on top of all the other things I was clueless about.